2 Losses

I had the worst day of my life yesterday, so I thought I might blog about it. Very hard to watch your grandpa try and release himself from his body. He is ready to pass on but is holding on with one thread. I have a strong testimony now of the plan of salvation. Allison and I had a few moments alone with my grandpa when he did something that startled us. My grandpa yesterday did not speak a word. His energy level wont allow him to talk. Out of the blue he opened his glazed over eyes and said "Hi Dad" he than said, "Already!" I believe his Dad was in the room to pick him up. He than waved. I know this to be true. She said something to me that made alot of sense. She told me that its watching somebody struggle to live that you realize the most important thing in your life is family. I believe in that so much. The past few weeks our family has really grown close. I have never really sat down and talked to my Aunt Tracey or My Aunt Karen like I have these few weeks. They are great ladies. I even grew closer to my Aunt Nanete and Uncle Gordon and my cousins. I am so lucky to have the family that I do. I love my sisters so much. I want to take this oppertunity to tell my sister Allison how much I love her and think the world of her more than she will ever understand. Despite the fact that I am about to lose my grandpa, I lost a very important person in my life. Justin and I parted ways yesterday and decided it would be best to break up. I did not think that this day would come but it did..I thought he was the person I was going to spend the eternities with and raise a beautiful family. I still have hope that he will realize that is what he wants...cause I know without a shadow of doubt, it is what I want. I love you Justin, I hope for the very best. In the end I hope we both get our happy ending together. I am drained, I am tired and emotional today. I just need a friend and my family by my side. I still am hopeful. I still have faith and I am still going to carry on. Until next time......Faith is by my side.